WoW, I guess I deleted my other message?? Damn man? I do need help, I am so broke and in debt I cannot reach the top of this hill I am in?? Someone who is sincere (u know who u are) and honest and can be a real person and a real friend, both Female and Male. Anyway, Yeah I figured I would add a little more to my post, I am a super intelligent woman who loves to laugh and have fun, I love to make people happy, laugh and just enjoy time when I am around them, I am the actual "LIFE" of a social gathering of any kind, (well not formal) but I am sure I would be stared at too much. I don't mind of course, it's a compliment to me, (as long as it's not them staring at a booger, or something else totally embarrasing that I had no idea about, and my controlling boyfriend wouldn't tell me about because he hates that I draw attention in crowds) I have my entire life, at age 26/27 when I was married and living in Southern Florida (hollywood beach exact) my Brother and his wife and child came to visit from Indiana, and my nephew was 4 years old and we went to the Seaquarium in Miami (1995) and at the sea lion show, with about 3K or more people in the stands , I was the ONE the guy picked to come and feed this sea lion a sardine and not my nephew, when I grabbed him and was walking him with me, the guy said in his microphone, YOU ONLY MAM, not the child. I was shocked, OMG< did he just say that? I would have been so livid had it been a child of mine, (I do not have any children though :0( I can't/could not, maybe now?? but my boyfriend is fixed! :0( real bummer, I want one, but face it I won't so I deal with it. I have a great doggie that is so smart and loves me to death as I do her. Anyway that is just a point of what I mean as far as getting noticed, there were thousands of kids and young one with their parents that I would of thought got to do that?? owell, it was fun and I have the picture, I did look cute, but hey that is wrong. Another one? Ok OJ simpsons day to see if he was a guilty man for the murders of Nicole and Ron Goldman, I feel he is guilty, but owell. I am nobody anyway, so we were at Nicoles house on the same day he was to be charged or innocent, and nobody was really there yet, the news people were setting up their cameras , then so were the poparaaazi idiots and so forth, but not actualy onlookers, so we were at the gate of this home (my MOM lived in Beverly Hills back then , so we were close to all this anyway) but when the newscrew was all hooked up ( oh we got their and were the 6th car , so news was just barely setting up) Channel 9 here in California was interviewing someone, and my Brother scooted me out of the way to get in front of me ( he is just barely a year younger , we are like twins and he and I fought our entire life growing up, but loved and cared for each so much that when my mom was angry at me, he stuck up always, even got out when my mom told me to move out and got us a place through his friend where he worked on cars and sold them I was 18 and he was 17, anyway we lived together on the strand in oceanside SAn Diego for a year, then I started my life and moved to Imperial Beach, about a year and a half later I was in Florida with a surfer I had met on a year vacation to surf in San Diego I worked at a PUB underage on the beach (Imperial Beach) and did for under a year at 20 yrs old, anyway I got interviewed with channel 9 and my Brother had a fit, this was right after the sea lion thing, that was that past year, or the year after I cannot totaly remember right now, but hey out of about now 30 people or less around that neighborhood, I was the only one with my then husband that they interviewed, I was nice enough to say, hey my Brother loves to be on Television and get attention, (like me) but a lot worse ok, anyway I told the camera lady to please interview him and it was funny, she had to take off for an emergency fire or something going on very important so no she could not , she was going to then, but had to run, now my step father interviewed the entire interview on the news and my brother was throwing a baby fit, (still does I guess) but we are no longer close. He has 3 kids, 2 boys and 1 girl, and they are his life now. He also has sugar diabetes type 2 and I worry, but he doesn't care about me anymore like he used to and I am sure it's because of things that my mother told him and just life, life sucks for me now, it was so fun in the 90s and of course I loved the 80s thats my growing up days. HS and all. Anyway, I am a target I guess, my look? my smile? my personality shows through my face? a lot of people just have said tome from online and looking at a pic, YOU look like a lot of fun and could be a lot of fun to be with and I said yeah, I am and I admit I am no problems, I have always been funny, lately not so, I am so depressed and trying to get out of it, My life is just out of control now and I need to know I am cared for by meeting friends and of course being so honest upfront and I am not shy at all. If you want to ask me a favor, a question, or If I can offer help I will, but I cannot send money or anything like that, because I have none either. I need some, anyway need a good shoulder to cry on? a good listener for anything you need to talk about? or just a friend with knowledge in life from past and present things I have done, been through and go through daily? just ask, I am super cool too. with a ton of love, and I also need to know if I had to get out of a situation fast I really do not want to street option, now I have nothing or nobody I am not allowed and I do have a doggie that is now 3, girl terrior mix, very loving and so well behaved, very very obiedient, anyway I need her as much as she needs me in life. But I want a safe haven to go to with her and my things, so anyone offer a room? or a place they know of that won't charge much or nothing? please advise, it won't be permanent because I need to get back together and on my feet, I can work but I have to settle about 3 months max, or not work if it was a man to pamper me (like always have been) and love me as I love back and pamepr lol. ok enough for now. but I am in crisis here help me just be a friend ok? Annie I guess I deleted my my post that I did
